Where are you?

Have you ever gone outside the bathroom in the middle of a shower and taken your phone with you just in case your boyfriend might call you? 

Have you cried yourself to sleep knowing that the last time you woke up in that bed your boyfriend was waiting you for breakfast?

Have you ever missed someone so much that you smelled his sweater before you go to sleep?

Have you ever put in a situation that everyone is asking you about your boyfriend because the last time he was with them he promised that he would come back again soon? And you have no answer.

I guess I am already over with feeling alone. I started to feel ashamed of myself. What am I waiting for? Who is he that never comes for me? Am I being fooled or what? Did we break up? Has he left me forever? I don't know anything because he hasn't called me for two weeks today. I feel like he got used to my absence. He's not trying at all. No news. Even exes see each other more. We are worse than separated couples. I can't stand it anymore. Maybe we aren't meant to be and this is a big sign...