Never Imagined This Would Hurt That Much

This I will make you read when you come back. IF you come back. This is the most unusual love story that could ever happen to someone. Allah swt is testing me in such a way that I cannot comprehend. The only way I react is by crying since 15 April. Noone is with me and only a few people know that you've been missing since then. I am at home sitting on the couch in dark and just crying loudly. My body is tired of sobbing. Even my muscles hurt. My head is spinning when I wake up. It has a pounding pain. All my body aches. My tears are like knives cutting my cheeks while going down.
Believe me I don't care the pain I am going through at the moment if in the end I will see you and hear about you, baby.
You were always there to remind me of nice things in life because I was always pessimistic. But now you left me with my Shaytan. I cannot think anything well. It's been 3 days just now since I last talked to you and heard your voice. Where are you? Why did you leave me like that? I remember our last talk and we both cried because we were worried about the circumstances in Abha. The network was lousy there because of the airplanes flying around. I hated the network as we couldn't even communicate with more than 5 consecutive words each.

NOW I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES.

You called me when I was writing these lines and crying non-stop. I really had difficulty in hearing what you were saying but I could tell you that I love you one more time. You gave the worlds to me by your voice. We couldn't stop crying. You said you missed me so much. I missed you too, 7abiby. More than you can imagine. I now am sure that this is love. You doubled that love when you said "I promise you, I will come back. I will come back and put that ring on your finger, I promise." "I didn't care to live before but no I care about you and I care to live." These words are resonating in my mind. Although you told me many things, you were on the road. I couldn't hear you well and I could only hear your breathing hard because you were crying. May Allah swt bless you, safeguard you and bring you back to me safe and healthy IA.

When you said to me I HATE SAUDI! I know you were feeling so desperate and hopeless but Allah swt is with us. I am still sad too but I am also confident about the fact that my Lord never forgets or abondons his slaves. He will be protecting you and other medical staff there with you.

Hold on my king. Pray and Have Sabr. "Indeed Allah swt is with us."